“Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it.”
- Eckhart Tolle
Sometimes life just has its own way of teaching lessons.
During the last few days I had a migraine attack, so I wasn't able to leave the house. My medication helped me to prevent the worst, but I was spending my time sleeping a lot. When my energy level allowed me to, I read a bit. But while being awake I mostly just lay on the sofa and did nothing. Except that doing nothing wasn't really doing nothing, I started to be intensely present with myself. Something that until now I only did during my meditation practice. I surrendered to the circumstances, allowed my body to rest and immersed myself deeply in the present moment. And I can't really explain it, but something inside myself shifted. I had a feeling of peace that I haven't felt before. Something inside myself assuring me that I am totally fine - right here, right now.
And this feeling is still with me now.
It's something I have no words for. But I know it will stay with me as long as I don't loose the connection to myself and the present moment. It is wonderful and liberating. And it showed me that no matter how much darkness there is, we always have access to the light.